Dedicated

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Disclaimer: For Wolfwood’s Songfic contest. The lyrics are Dedicated by Linkin Park. All other characters are property of Nitemare_Angel.

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“Ever had one of those really weird dreams where you’re given an offer to discard the life you’re living for one of those perfect lives?” Mango stood out at the edge of the apartment, leaning one arm on the railing, “Well…I did. It was ironic though…”

 

I have a dream of a scene between the green hills 
Clouds pull away and the sunlight's revealed 
People don't talk about keeping it real 
It's understood that they actually will 
And intoxicated and stimulated emcees 

 

            “Two months ago I parted from you guys, and I came here. I know it was rough, since from the time you guys found me to the time I said goodbye, we were the closest of friends. Well, at least you and I were,” She closed her eyes, hand on her eye, “But I needed to get away from there. I needed to find who I really am. You know that, I know that, he knows that. So, I gave up everything, and began my journey.”

            She smiled, thinking back, “This story may take awhile, but since the majority of the things are pointless details, and you know that I found this place from my letter, I’ll cut to where the irony comes in.”

 

Staring in the trees, paranoid, or caught in the breeze 
Watch them flee, hip-hop hits 
Take a walk with me and what you'll see 
Is a land where the sand is made up of crushed up wax 
And the sky beyond you is krylon blue 
And everybody speaks in a dialect of rhyme 
And emcees have left materialism behind them 

 

Mango Kattan sat on the sofa, her legs crossed, and her eyes closed, trying not to fall asleep. Her sanity was on the brink at the moment. Between what had been happening with the others, the point where she almost had died herself, and this overload of memory, she couldn’t seem to piece it all together.

She muttered something inaudible, her hands over her eyes, but her voice rose after awhile, “I have hope that they’ll do it. Together they can overcome anything…they really could.”

Mango fell to the floor, bile rising in her mouth, and she felt the room blur, “Damn…”

 

Meanwhile I just grip my mic 
And hope me and my team make it through alright 
Because say what you will, and say what you might 

But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night

 

“Forever love. Forever dream,” The room rematerialized, and Mango realized that it was still her apartment. The CD player was playing music as usual, and she seemed alive. Yet inside she didn’t feel alive. She reached for the telephone, and slowly picked it up, dialing a number. She waited, and sat against the table, but dropped the phone after half a minute.

“They…didn’t do it.” She looked down, tears in her big green eyes, “They’re gone…”

Life sure as hell ain’t no fairy tale, and that was what Mango finally learned. At that point, anything naïve inside her heart, it was dead.

 
I've seen a lot of shit, I've talked to a bum 
Out on sunset strip, he asked me How would you feel 
If everybody acted like you didn't exist 
You'd lose your grip, probably eventually flip. 

 

“General Chiboko, I have a message for you!” The doll beeped. Mika, Kinioko’s old unit doll, which was given to Mango to guarantee her protection on this planet, had often a message from Kinioko to explain what was going on.

“Go away, Shiboko’s dead.” Mango muttered, curled up on her bed, the garment grid dangling in the window, “If she wants to talk to Mango, I’ll be willing to comply.”

“Chiboko-sama. You mustn’t let yourself fall into a groove. I can understand that you lost yourself when Volandra was broken, but this is different! You must come to!”

There was no reply, and Mika looked out the window.”

“The general I know is nothing like this.”

“Shut up! The general you know is dead!” She screamed, picking up the doll, “Everything I live for is gone. My friends, the only people who accepted me, the only people who helped me when my memories were gone, they’re all dead. And Shiboko died with them.”

“Can you really surrender just like that?” Mika watched Mango carefully, and the girl’s hand was shaking as she dropped the doll, “I’m going out.”

 
So let it be known, the only reason that we do this 
So that you can pick it up and just bang your head to it 
While emcees fight to see who can be the commonist 
Be floatin overhead like a space odyssey monolith 
Over seeing the game, over being part of the same old thing 
It's all gonna change in a hurricane of darkness and pain 
And acidic rain and promises that you won't do it again 

 

Crack. The lightening lit up the sky, and the rain began to fall.

            Mango stared out her window, green eyes seeming to reflect nothing, the rain slammed down on the panes, “Damn. I could’ve done something, couldn’t I?”

            “You don’t know that, Chiboko.” Mika beeped softly, “You cannot change the past.”

            “I may not be able to change the past, but I can bring them back!” She grinned, and sat up.

            “What do you mean?” Mika looked at her carefully, knowing that danger was in the air.

            “Well, you said that my people are ones of science. Well, science can bring them back, I’m sure!”

            She then hunched over a book, and began to read, the book was placed over her warm legs…

 

Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside 
This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide 
Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside 
This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide 

 

            “And that’s what really happened,” Mango smiled, mentioning nothing of what happened in her apartment, her foot tapping against the pavement, though it was made of metal, so it made a clanking noise.

            “I gave up my life with you two, and I ended up losing the perfect life I have now,” She looked at her metal arm, “It’s just a sick irony…”